Saturday, January 16, 2010

Back in Texas and really busy!

Sorry it's been so long since the last post. I have been back in Texas now for a week, and things are very busy-especially at work. Both my events have deadlines coming up, I worked over time last week and have been dealing with a lot in my own personal life as well.

The Lord is taking me through a season of refinement again, and it is good but painful. I have to let go of a friendship that is hindering my walk with the Lord, and that is very painful but I think in the long run it will help both of us come closer to the Lord.

I will explain more later, but for now this is all I have time to post. I will be checking on your blogs :)

~Standing on His Promises~

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Real Life, Real Love, Real Pain

I have been back home with my family for almost 3 weeks. This is the longest I have been home in over a year. I have learned much about life and about love...

Today I was on the verge of tears thinking about leaving my family and best friend to go back to Texas, not knowing when I will come back home. As my heart aches I am reminded that it is only because I really love them that I hurt.

In life there is much pain, and in many of our lives we are hurt by those we love the most. At times those hurts can cause us to guard our hearts-sometimes closing it off completely. We can be afraid to get close to someone because we fear that they will leave us, or betray us, causing our hearts to be broken all over again. But if we do not love, we will surely die. Consider this:

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”--CS Lewis
This quote was given to me by a dear friend last year, during a time in my life that I did not want to love, for fear of having my heart broken once again.
Love hurts, but not in a negative way. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a
Love is patient
love is kind
and is not jealous
love does not brag
and is not arrogant
does not act unbecomingly
it does not seek its own
is not provoked
keeps no record of wrongs
does not rejoice in unrighteousness
but rejoices with the truth
love never fails
Love is not easy by any means. But to love deeply is to really live. Saying goodbye, or even walking through life with those you love hurts. The love Christ displayed on the cross hurt too.
Love Deeply.
~Standing on His Promises~