The song WHY was written shortly after a classmate's father took his life, leaving his son, daughter and wife to deal with unanswered questions.
WHY
(chorus)
Why did you have to go
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
(verse 1)
Was it something i did or something i said
was there no other way to stop the pain
could it be that your love for me was not enough
Why did you have to go
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
(verse 2)
what was it that you couldn't live through
what about those you left behind
did you think that we could just move on without you
Why did you have to go
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
(bridge?)
Who will walk me down the isle
who will chase away my fears
who will heal my broken heart
who will wipe away my tears
Oh daddy, Why did you have to go
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
there's so much i need to know
All i have left are memories
and one little note that you wrote me
This next song was written at 3am, I shot up out of bed and wrote down the song in my head. Definitely a God thing.
ONE NIGHT LAST MONTH
(intro)
Went down to the clinic today
one night last month i gave myself away
never been so afraid of a test before
(verse 1)
How do i carry for 9 months
look into its eyes and say good-bye
i hope you have a much better life
(chorus)
Why does this have to be so hard
why'd i choose to go that far
and what am i supposed to do now
(verse 2)
What if i do the unthinkable
because I'm so afraid of what they'll say
the christian life i used to lead
is now just hypocrisy
Why does this have to be so hard
why'd i choose to go that far
and what am i supposed to do now
why'd i choose to go that far
and what am i supposed to do now
(Bridge?)
when i tell him what will he say?
its not his there's just no way
and i'll just have to figure it out
Why does this have to be so hard
why'd i choose to go that far
and what am i supposed to do now
why'd i choose to go that far
and what am i supposed to do now
went down to the clinic today
one night last month I gave myself away
Never been so afraid of a test before
These song are in no way professional but I really believe that some day God is going to use them to touch someone. I also believe that one reason I wrote these songs was because I have the spiritual gift of mercy.
"The gift of Mercy: the special gift where by the Spirit enables certain Christians to feel exceptional empathy and compassion for those who are suffering so that they can devote large amounts of time and energy to alleviate it.
This ability to empathize with hurting people manifests itself into cheerful acts of service. The believer feels deeply for those with physical, spiritual or emotional needs and is motivated to take action to meet the needs.
The actions taken reflect Christ’s love.The Greek word for “mercy” (eleos) means “to show compassion,” or “to feel sympathy of heart.” This gift is characterized by the ability to suffer alongside the person in pain, in a sense to feel the pain with them and to want to help them bear it.
This extraordinary gift enables the believer to feel a deep compassion that transcends natural Christian caring and to minister to hurting people in a cheerful and sustained manner.
The person with the gift of mercy will be drawn to exercise it among the needy, ill, the mentally impaired, the handicapped, shut-ins, imprisoned, bereaved, lonely, and others in troubled situations.
It is revealed in the person’s being able to serve in the presence of human misery such as is so often seen among the poor, the sad, the afflicted and the abandoned."
Yep, thats my number 1 gift and (fortunately?) it shows. I am the one who helps at funerals, who takes on the burdens of those around me, who desperately wants to make the hurt go away because I can feel it, just like they can. Only I can express it when sometimes they can't or don't know how. I can be a voice, their voice.
I can be His arms, giving them His hugs, shedding His tears, showing His love, and lightening their load by bearing their burden with Him. This gift is not easy and to be honest their have been times where I have hated it, really hated it. But in this moment, I understand why I have it, and why its needed.
I can be His arms, giving them His hugs, shedding His tears, showing His love, and lightening their load by bearing their burden with Him. This gift is not easy and to be honest their have been times where I have hated it, really hated it. But in this moment, I understand why I have it, and why its needed.
Thank you for reading all of this! I hope it made sense, some times they don't and thats ok too.
~standing on His Promise~
CaseyMay
