Learning

Wow.

God is really teaching me a lot of things. One thing He has been impressing upon my heart is being real---admitting and acknowledging my past failures and mistake, those times that weren't so pretty, that were down right disgusting. That is so hard for me, maybe it's a pride thing, maybe it's trust, or maybe it because it's hard and uncomfortable.

If there is one thing I know, it's that God is certainly not going to let me be comfortable this year.

I am getting up at 4:30 AM to exercise Mon-Fri, not by choice, Mr. Hasz calls it worship, and I am beginning to see why. It is there every morning in the dark, still, quiet morning that I beat and crucify my flesh, where I push myself as hard as I can, relying on God's strength instead of my own-this is my act of worship. We exercise on what they call the anvil- and this word brings a visual image to my mind. A metal worker taking a red hot iron out of the fire, placing it on the anvil, and pounding it with a hammer to mold it and shape it. The clang on the metal rings in my ears as I run every morning. God is the metal worker and I am the iron. Refinement hurts but it is worth it. It is the only way to become more like Christ.

I am searching for my identity in Christ. I have discovered so many things that I have believed that are lies from the enemy. Some I didn't even know about. It was then that I realized-apart from the lies, I really don't know who I am. I have believed these things for so long, but now I am replacing them with the TRUTH- God's word.

So much more is happening, bu t I couldn't begin to tell you all of it because it would take up way to much room and time. I hope and pray y'all are doing well and I thank you so much for all you have done for me.
~standing on His Promise~
CaseyMay

A change of the most glorious kind

Hey everyone!

So here I am in Graden Valley, Texas at the Honor Academy. I am sitting in the cafeteria and I am just so still in my spirit.

In the past 3 days (which have been SO packed it feels like 10 days!) I have already grown so much in my relationship with the Lord, I wish y'all could see my face, I think I'm glowing :)

God has something so BIG planned for me, I'm not sure what it is but I don't need to know either! SO my heart's cry this year is to be completely broken by God, to the point where my every action and deed reflects Him and all the glory is His and that I rely FULLY on Him, for my everything. Every breath, every thought, every tear, every word, every step, EVERYTHING.

I love you all and I will update when I have time, (by the way my roommates are awesome!) it may not be until Saturday.

~standing on His Promise~
CaseyMay

Just for the record

Just for the record...

There are some words that when put in perfect order feel like knives in your heart

good-bye

i will miss you

I never want to say these words again or hear them.

Yet this is just the begining

They say my life has just begun

but

I feel like I'm dying

~standing on His Promise~(it's worth it?)

CaseyMay

Dreaming, Dancing, Drifting

In 2 days I will get on a plane at 6am and move to Texas and I couldn't be more excited. :)

Some might call this denial...

but I call it dreaming.

Dreaming of all the things I have not seen

Dreaming of the adventure that awaits me

Dreaming of the person I will become

Dreaming of the God I will fall in love with

Dreaming of the unknown

Dancing...

Dancing for joy

Dancing in the rain

Dancing to wind chimes

Dancing for my Jesus

Drifting...

Drifting away from people

I thought it would be harder

Yet I'm finding I'm at peace

This is a part of my life

I have already grieved

Now all the drifting I will do

Is drifting towards my dreams

Daring...

Daring to dance

Daring to dream

Daring to drift

Daring to leap

Daring to let go

Daring to be vunerable

Daring to start over

Daring to follow God

Daring to answer the Call

Daring to GO

~standing on His Promise~

CaseyMay

A few more days

2 1/2 Days

$161 needed

1 GREAT GOD

More details to come....

~standing on His Promise~

CaseyMay

all that's left

5 days

$700 needed

1 BIG God

Waiting Patiently

~standing on His Promise~

CaseyMay

As I Lay Here

"I'm so glad you're my best friend"

Her words pierced the silent room

pierced.

We watched The Passion of the Christ earlier that day.

"Greater love has no one than this,

that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13

Lay down my life...

He laid down His life for me

Lay down my life...

Pierced for my transgressions

Lay down my life...

He calls me Friend

Lay down my life...

She calls me Best Friend

Sleeping peacefully next to me was my best friend. She lays down her life for me. She invests in me, her time, talents, treasures, she shares it all with me. She sacrifices her needs/wants/desires to spend time with me-daily. Whether its a phone call, text message or actual face time.

Sometimes I am so selfish.

So unworthy

So ungrateful

Sometimes I forget all the good

all the laughter

all the joy

the memories

and the love

I have been shown.

A best friend:
-makes time for you
-laughs when you have one shoe on backwards
-touches you (back rubs and amazing hugs)
-laughs when you both get her age wrong
-goes on walks with you just because
-doesn't let anything get in the way of your friendship
-breaks down your walls
-asks you the hard questions
-prays with you
-gives of themselves
-loves you
-lays down their life for you

Everyday She looks more like Jesus.

~standing on His Promise~

CaseyMay